Insane Reflections
where my romanticized emotions and insane thoughts are stashed to oblivion . . . forever.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Diary of a Friend #3
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Diary of a Child #1
Friday, October 21, 2011
Diary of a Friend #2
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Mowgies! :)
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Diary of a Friend #1
Hindi naman ako mapagbigay, hindi rin talaga ako madamot. Hindi ako mabait, hndi rin tlga ako masama. May mga kaya akong gawin na hindi ko kaya gawin sa iba.. Kung uninterrupted life of heroic deeds ang pag-uusapan, akin sobrang interrupted. Dahil nagagawa ko lang gumawa ng kabutihan sa mga kaibigan ko, sa mga taong malapit sa akin, ung tipong pati buhay ko, ilalaan ko para sa kanila.
I have learned that I will not always be there for them whenever they need me. I won’t always be there to support or even carry them around though they walk with 4 feet. I won’t always be there to laugh at their jokes, tease them and help them “observe” other people. I can’t promise that. Who knows what tomorrow brings? If we happen to stay the same, I would very much love that. But if not, is there any other choice save accept and move on? :(
But nevertheless, isa lang talaga ang mapapangako ko sa inyo, un ay tulungan at suportahan kayo sa LAHAT ng makakaya ko..
You know who you are. :’(
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Diary of a Masochist #1
one thing you'll never get from me at that first glance is how i am immensely delighted in pain . . .
yes, pain. physical and emotional.
sometimes, i like to store things up inside and just wait for that moment until i get so exhausted and suicidal.
but these things don't happen without a price. sometimes, somewhere along the process, my attitude changes or shall i say my mood swings. it moves abruptly and unpredictably that sometimes, i become so hard to get along with it. and buti sana kung wala ung effects. eh most of the time, i leave negative imprints on those people i am with.. i can't blame them, you know? it's not their fault if they can't cope up, trying to understand me. hello, i'm practically being impossible.. but then again, it's sort of like a cycle.. the moment they get angered or irritated or something like that, it just gives me another reason to wallow in rejection and near-depression emotions. thus, more pain.. more pain means faster process of hauling and filling up my emotions with all these negativity. more negativity means the lower i feel. the lower i feel spells more reasons for me to put it out in the physical sense -- physical infliction. self-infliction.. self-infliction = satisfaction...
*evil laugh*... i know what you must be thinking right now. i am weird. i agree with that.. and you know what? i somehow like it...
but in the end, i gain nothing, not even that satisfaction i get after the cuts and bruises.. rather, i lose it all.. i end up defeated.. i end up losing all my friends. and no matter how hard i try to reach out to them, it would be too late because i already pushed them so far..
so readers, bare with me.
i'll understand if you can't.. but at least just try.
:(