Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Diary of a Suicidal #2


have you ever felt so suddenly hurt and miserable even after you've had tons of happiness and laughter just an hour ago?
have you ever felt that pain that creeps inside you and you give a loud shriek the moment it bites into your heart and soul?
have you ever felt that grief that locks itself in your heart and no matter how you pry it off, it doesn't budge?

i have... and i am, right now...

it has come back -- the old me.. yes, it has..

i am fearful but nevertheless morbidly elated..


sometimes, when you become so emotionally burdened, you become so numb and immobile. you can't feel anything, not even pain.. and sometimes, the only way to feel again is through hurting yourself... physically...

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4 comments:

  1. Cassiop3iaJuly 20, 2011 at 2:16 AM

    efff! i just hate reading this. bien morbid. be strong poohbear. i wish i can help.:(

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  2. j cJuly 20, 2011 at 2:24 AM

    i know.. this is really what i am referring to when i say "insane reflections". it's a personal thing lang man din.. out-of-the-blue kind of thing..

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  3. Cassiop3iaJuly 21, 2011 at 1:21 AM

    you call it out-of-the-blue? that's so freaky naman! :(

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  4. j cJuly 21, 2011 at 4:27 AM

    yes. i do.. i have to say, i really do.. it's sudden eh.. it just emerges from somewhere.. i know, i really am freaky. :(

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